Day 496 of a Newfound Adult

I write this laying in bed under an endless amount of quilts and blankets, sipping on lemonade, and eating a SKOR candy bar and listening to my most recent favorite band, The Airborne Toxic Event. I'm not sure how well the chocolate and the bitter-sweet lemonade mix, but the rest of it makes for a perfect concoction.

As days go by I realize more and more how much I no longer want to be an adult. I spent part of the day hanging out with my step sister Megan, we ate lunch at FlatTop and ran some errands. As I watched her pick up groceries and calculate the cost, limiting herself to spending $30, I fully realized that I would soon have to do more of the same, and I also realized how much I don't want to do that. I realize as I sit here, more sure of what I don't want to do than what I do want to do at any given moment, that I'm growing up more and more every day and there's nothing that I can do about it. 

After hanging out with my sister I took a long nap, called Meijer about work, and made a Facebook post about how I would rub someone's feet for 8 hours a day at a pay rate of $8.25/hr if anyone wanted me to. My desperation level for work seems to increase every day. I am looking at online writing jobs as I write this, hoping for maybe a sliver of a chance, though I've looked at all of them previously with no luck.

To summarize what I just said, here's a poem I wrote a few days that sums up my struggle with adulthood:

Maybe you cried at birth

because you knew that from

that second onward you would spend

the rest of your life growing up.

Other than my struggle with adulthood, this candy bar is pretty pleasing and the music I am listening to makes me much happier with life. Now I must return to scanning the wide web for employment opportunities.

Until next time,

C.K. Fulfer

My Brief Opinion on Recent Police Brutality Protests

While I agree that what happened in Ferguson and Chicago was horrible, the one thing I have to say to protesters and the like is that if they're going to protest police brutality they need to protest all cases, because while there are cases such as the two mentioned that are about race, or deemed to be about race at least, there are also tons more cases that are much more brutal and not about race. What about the justice for brutality towards animals, children and any other race? It's a broad issue that goes beyond race, I just want people to remember that. Other than that, peacefully protest on, make a difference, do good.

Back to the Basics

Hey everyone!

So, I could not afford the official website that I used to have, therefore, I am returning to this blog!
I'm not sure if anyone reads this or will read this, but I will start to post as much as I can.

Update:

I am currently a sophomore at Monmouth College and it is now mid-finals week. While I should be writing papers and studying for my Environmental Science final... I am here. This semester I met and introduced author and philosopher Christopher Phillips in September and got to go to a bunch of his events around campus the day that he visited. In classes, I wrote a research paper on the Scarlet Letter by Nathaniel Hawthorne about biblical allusions and how the characters are symbols of different characters and symbols in the biblical story of Adam and Eve and the Garden of Eden. I got the research paper back today and received an A- on it.

I also recently finished a very interesting research paper on the causes of school shootings in America and the influence of news media on the increase of school shootings. I also talked about how we cannot solve the problem because people will not admit that school shootings are more complex than violent video games, Marilyn Manson, Gun laws, and mental illnesses alone. All in all, it was a long and interesting paper and I think I did a fairly good job on it.

Now, I am sitting here during finals week. I took my American Survey I final at 3pm today, turned in the take home final for Theories of Exceptional Learners at 11:30am, and still need to write answers for a teaching scenario exam, I also need to revise a bunch of my writing for a Creative Writing portfolio due by the end of the day Friday. Most of all, I need to study for this Environmental Science exam, a class which I barely paid attention to the entire semester....

In a few days I will be back working at Meijer deli and gaining the funds to pay for next semester at college. Hopefully I will also be hired at Barnes and Noble so that I can earn even more money for school and some for leisure.

Welcome to day 492 of my adulthood, aka it has been 492 days since the first day I moved to Monmouth College and began my freshman year at college.

P.S. My love life is excellent as well, January 15th, 2015 marks a year!

C.K. Fulfer